The anonymous "they" say, when you're not with the one you love, you only remember the good things. You glorify that. You forget bad breath and the way you felt that one time they really let you down. Maybe it's not healthy, but when I'm in relationships, I remind myself of this- and think, what would I miss the most? So I don't lose the appreciation for it. There are always those sneakers, though, the ones that get by you- like that one smile, or the morning you got pancakes, the day you laughed from your gut... like the bad breath you didn't think you'd miss, but you do, despite rationality.
And there are people you don't always get quite right. Maybe they were so relatable, that the lack of effort made you not appreciate the strength of connection. Maybe they were so available, you didn't learn to appreciate their presense. Maybe they were so strong, they could take a hard hit, but they shouldn't have ever had to. I think about people like this, because they are the rare gems in a life. I think about how wrong I always was, and even now, how wrong I am. How I will always be humbled by the love that wasn't so damn hard, because being hard doesn't make something meaningful. Humbled by the love that held me, when I was afraid, and my pride's dam leaked. That understood when no one would. That held on. That held me to something better, by model.
I don't think everyone wants a challenge. I think some people are content to just be loved. Maybe they don't want to think so much- maybe they just want the life that looks like everybody else's. I'm not them.
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I had Bad Breath for years but didn’t even know it. I noticed people near me would rub there noses sneeze cough and try to go else where. It occurred to me that I had bad breath. So I went to my dentist to have my teeth cleaned but when I asked about my bad breath he said floss brush and rinse twice a day. I said I’ve been doing that since I was 15! But my dentist had run out of time so I was back on the street. Then I was paying top dollar for all those will “stop Bad Breath” all you have to do is buy all these products for the rest of your life! And they don’t even work ffs. One of my few remaining friends mentioned an eBook his girlfriend used called www.BadHalitosisBreath.com and said it worked for his girlfriend so why not me? So I downloaded a copy and found out the book had been around for years! I could have fixed my Bad Breath years ago. The eBook took a completely different approach to the cure of Bad Breath I followed it word for word. Within a week I could tell it was working and my friend said it was much better. Now a year later I have a good job a great girlfriend and Party every weekend.
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